A Change Going Come

Change Going Come!

May 18th of 2016 (While On the toilet) 

It was at that moment when I "smiled", and it was at a place where most would crumble, become depressed or even quit and give up on life's battle. It was 'Rock Bottom'! Yes! How could I be smiling at a time like this you ask? It's because although I have made bad decisions over and over, countless tripping, stumbling, and eventually fallen from grace to a place that looks so familiar... CHANGE! I'm smiling because I have been here before and I know what I'm going to do next! CHANGE! I think the only way to defeat the devil (one's own personal issues) is with heightened DETERMINATION! You see I've been at this place before and I have seen and felt what it's like to turn one's life around. It involves dedication, resilience, belief (Your God) and the most important besides God... Patience. I've learned that patience is very important when it comes to changing anything, especially bad habits. Patience is the belief that everything will work out in the long/short haul, you have to understand that things take time to develop and go through a process. I remember when I learned that, it became the single best skill I learned that helped me get to the Matrix level of ones self. I started to see opportunities that were always there right in front of me, but I was blinded by the everyday camouflage of life to see it. But by making bad decisions, I was playing Russian roulette with my life. This was at the risk of killing my dreams and goals that were set forth for me! So every time that wheel would spin as I placed my life's bet, so would the barrel of the gun that I was pointing to my head (not literally). "Why am I playing with my life like this?" I would ask myself! And although sometimes I knew the the answer, I didn't want to face it, I had a problem that needed fixing. But today, that devil has defeated me for the last time! I'm sooooooo Determined to win this time! This time I'm not going back to spin that barrel. I have to much to lose, and to many people to help! I have been blessed with a gift and talents that even at this moment I don't even know I have! So as I literally set on this toilet as I write this note for change, it's time to SH*% or Get off the pot!

TOTW #revamped!